Making a Baby!

I remember a few years ago when Matt and I started talking about wanting kids.  I remember hearing funny stories of how friends and family members were conceived.  I always kind of wondered how my own children would be conceived... I always  had imagined it would have entailed a night with a little too much wine and you know what.

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine getting pregnant and it looking like this ( see pics below)!  

We have been down this road before but it makes me giggle just a little to know that this crazy garb is part of the process of getting "knocked up."  

I am happy to announce that our perfect little embryo made it through the thawing process and we implanted it yesterday!  If you were wondering what an embryo looks like here he or she is

God decided to provide a beautiful sunny day for implantation day!  Dr. Morris ( our reproductive endocrinologist) said that the embryo looked great and that the picture above shows the embryo hatching, another good sign.  So now we begin yet another waiting game and see in about a week and a half whether or not the embryo implanted.  We've gotten over a few hurdles and now have to patiently wait for the next step!  I am staying home this Labor Day weekend resting and imagining my little embryo burrowing down deeply into its new home.  

Matt and I both laughed yesterday at the thought of our Angel baby, Collin, talking to the new embryo and telling him/her how wonderful his/her new home is ( my uterus) and that they made some great additions ( a transabdominal cerclage).  We imagined that my uterus feels as soft as the potterybarn blanket I own and cannot imagine why anyone wouldn't want to nestle down for a 9 month nap.  So hopefully by next week we will know if all of this has worked.  We are praying that god continues to watch over us and provide a miracle to grow and develop over the next 9 months! 

Twins?!?!

Twins?  No, not me! However, I cracked an egg for breakfast the other morning and to my surprise twin yolks!  Two days later, twins again!  Matt even had twin yolks this weekend.  Maybe it's fate or good signs to come?  

I took a little hiatus from blogging!  I was mad about my results and didn't really know what was going to happen.  So two months later and a total test to our patience we finally have ONE beautiful little frozen embryo that is totally normal and good to implant.  

How exciting right?  Well not so fast... This embryo has one huge step before we can implant.  It has to make the thaw in order for us to be able to implant it.  So for the past 4.5 weeks I have been preparing my body with lots of hormones and getting ready for the implantation to occur.  

I am scheduled to have the embryo transferred Thursday August 28, 2014.  I am totally thrilled yet scared out of my mind.  I won't know if the embryo "made it" or not until the morning of! So in the mean time I am stuck hoping, praying, and pleading to god that this ONE and only little frosty ( aka the embryo) is a tough one!

So I ask you to pray for us.  Pray for our embryologist who has to thaw the embryo.  And pray that the embryo makes it and implants! 

What a roller coaster of emotions!  From happy tears to tears of fear and anger I am once again riding out gods little plan and realizing that making a family really is not in my hands nor will it ever be.  Hopefully Matt and I will be able to celebrate in a few weeks that we are once again pregnant and one step closer to bringing a baby home!  

It's a Marathon not a sprint!

In vitro sometimes feels like the never ending race!  I have run 5 marathons and with every race their typically is a point around mile 19-21 that seems to be the hardest to push through... What's another 4 or 5 miles when you have already run 20 right?  Well mind over matter you sometimes hit a wall and it seems like an eternity to the finish line.  Some how though I have always pushed through and walked/ran my way to the finish line.

It seems like we are once again on mile 19 or 20 of 26.2 ... How are we going to keep going? Will we ever make it to the finish? 

We received the results of the genetic testing and once again they were inconclusive.  So now what?  Give up?  Keep going? Matt and I feel very discouraged.  We are waiting to hear back from our reproductive endocrinologist to see where we go from here.  So just as you were hoping for positive results like we were with sad eyes and empty hearts we keep waiting...

Thankfully we are going on vacation and spending a week with my family at  "The Cottage" in Michigan.  

Lucky Number 7

  

                 

Well we ended up with 7 embryos after 6 days of growing.  Lucky number 7 or not it's the most we have had out of the 2 other cycles.  Now we have to wait another two weeks for the genetic testing to come back to determine how many embryos are normal and balanced.  Prayers for at least one ( but we're hoping for more right? )

Embryo Update

Just a quick little update for you all.  We've gone from 26 eggs to 17 growing embryos.  It seems like in the scheme of things that we lost a lot but this is the most embryos we have had out of all three rounds.  So 17 makes me feel like there is a little bit of a chance that one will be normal!!