They're Here!!

8 months later we finally have 30 beautiful eggs in our possession. It feels a little funny that this time we paid for a baby momma to provide something for us rather than me going through the whole ivf procedure, but we did it and we are here!  So now we wait until tomorrow to see how many of the 30 eggs were mature enough to fertilize and how many fertilized with Matt's little swimmers.

Sorry I didn't update throughout the week.  It was a crazy hectic week and I was too nervous to think that something might go wrong.  All is well for now, and we will either be implanting on Tuesday or Thursday.  I had an appointment to check my hormones and endometrial lining.  Things look great and my endometrial lining looks like a comfy pillow for those embryos to nestle into for a nice 10 month nap!

I cannot believe we are here.  Last night before bed Matt and I talked a little about what is about to come, and I got very sad and tearful. Sad because I am going on a leap of faith and potentially bringing babies that are not genetically mine into this world. And a little sad because if this doesn't work this really is our last chance for me to carry babies in my own belly.  I'm trying to stay positive and not think about the sad things but for all the joy and happiness I feel it is masked with fear and hesitation.  

I spent this week hanging out with some beautiful babies... A 3 month old little girl and a 3 week old baby.  It was nice to hear baby giggles, get some baby snuggles, and remind myself once again that once I catch the end of the rainbow I too can have that.  I believe in good mojo so I can only imagine how the good baby mojo only helped in the end process here.  I needed that.  So now we wait, again. Anticipating how many embryos will make it and how many I will get to implant.  Please pray for strength in numbers that we end up with at least enough embryos to complete our beautiful family someday.  We'll keep you all posted!  Until then keep your fingers crossed and your prayers coming!!!